Thank you to hairbrushman for suggesting this topic. A year ago, almost to the date, I wrote a post called Spanked To Tears where I shared what it takes to get me to cry from a spanking. But I don’t believe that I addressed the particular point of hairbrushman’s question which asked how do I feel about it as well as how do I feel about crying on camera in particular.
Tears are most often welcome as I’ll feel a huge reduction in stress and tension when they’re shed. Even though the spanking may continue for a while after I begin to cry which can be stressful in itself, there is an endorphin based release that tears bring that soothes and helps cope.
I can’t make myself cry and sometimes, no matter how much I hope for a flood of tears, it doesn’t happen. It’s not necessarily indicative of a lack of remorse for what I’ve done or the need for increased severity. It can be terribly frustrating and disappointing, but the tears have to form on their own – I can’t force them.
Sometimes I think it would be great if I could force the tears to flow, not only for the endorphin rush, but also for dramatic purposes in a spanking scene. Then again, if real tears were so easy to produce, perhaps they wouldn’t be so highly coveted and magical.
That being said, while I’m not embarrassed or ashamed to cry on camera, sometimes I will get a little self-conscious. As I’ve said in previous posts, tears are beautiful but snot is not. Unfortunately, a runny nose is a natural part of crying, especially when you’re positioned bottom up and head down, but it’s not something I’m keen on having captured on camera. Calling a cut in the middle of a great scene to ask to ask for a Kleenex would be a shame and so I’m left to desperately try to sniffle as effectively yet quietly as possible. Not an easy task, but I wonder if I could practice this technique by doing yoga while watching sad movies.