It was perfect pool weather the day I shot with Dallas. And that’s a good thing because I had to get some tan lines STAT. When I originally made plans to shoot with Dallas for mid-July, I promised him I’d have a nice tan and well defined lines. And even though I ended up having to reschedule for two months earlier than originally planned, he decided he was going to hold me to that promise despite my protests that it’s been an unfortunately cool spring back east. I was amazed by the color difference my pale skin managed to show in such a short time outdoors even with a couple of applications of sunscreens SPF 30 to 55.
We lounged by the pool just shooting the breeze as I tried my best to calm the butterflies in my tummy over what was going to take place shortly. And then the topic of conversation turned to what exactly I would be punished for. Dallas always spanks me for real life reasons and this was no exception. He explained that although I’d certainly made progress since the last time I visited him, I still struggled with issues of self-doubt and low self-worth that keep holding me back and affecting all aspects of my life. I had to agree as this is a major issue I’m trying to work on. I couldn’t help myself though and made the mistake of asking if he really meant all the nice things he was saying because the negative voices in my mind were refuting his every word. He landed a solid swat to my upturned bikini clad bottom to make it quite clear that he was serious. And if the warning swat was any indication of what punishment was to come next, I knew I was in big, big trouble.
While Dallas got everything set up for my Dallas Special Plus Plus (so named because each time I receive discipline it gets a bit worse … if I go back a fourth time will it be a Plus Plus Plus or maybe a Plus Plus Extreme?), the lovely Sabrina took some outdoor photos of me and my still relatively white bottom. My cheeks were just a tiny bit pink … not certain if that was from all of the spankings I’d received the previous couple of days or perhaps from that huge warning swat by the pool. In any case, my bottom was not going to be that pale for long so it’s good that we took photos to remember it that way. 
Sabrina Starr is very sweet and made me feel so comfortable that at least in the photos I’ve seen, I managed to ditch my terrified deer in the headlights look that I get when I don’t know someone well … especially when they are holding a camera and those insecurities of mine are in full force. Thank you so much Sabrina!!! You were such a pleasure to work with.
Then it was down to business. Dallas was ready for me. He hauled me out of the pool, marched me inside, and started right off with an intense hand spanking on my bare wet bottom. I think I was in tears by all of smack number three. Pain + Emotions = Lots and Lots of Tears. Thank goodness Dallas and Sabrina had made sure to have a box of tissues on hand as I needed more than a couple by the time we were done for the day. And while I am all for tears rolling down my face, tissues come in handy when I need to delicately blow my nose (hopefully that all remained off camera) because at least as far as I’m concerned, tears are hot, snot is not.
Of course I didn’t just receive a hand spanking from Dallas. No. I received a spanking with 9 other implements as well. Paddles, straps, crop, and more. Four of the implements had been selected by the members of Dallas’ site including the wooden spoon. Hmph. Luckily for me though, Dallas was unable to find the big mean spoon he had in mind (perhaps it ran off with a dish?) and instead had to use a prettier but still very stingy floral one.
By the time we finished, I was tear streaked, exhausted, and very, very red.
Oh and hungry!! Dallas brought me a plate of some of the best chicken salad ever (I’m still craving more nearly a week later). So nice!!!
Although I didn’t mark too much at the time of my spankings, it was interesting to see the bruises blossom later that night and over the next few days. I’m not sure which implements may have done the most damage, but there are a couple more now that I really wouldn’t mind running off and getting lost with that spoon.
May 22nd, 2008 - 2:22 am
Hi Pixie,
Good to read about the ‘healing’ aspects of Dallas’s spankings. One may wonder about this, but I honestly believe that for a woman like you, this works.
I’m not fond of bruising though. Your bum certainly must have developed a ‘tough’ or ‘experienced’ skin after the many spankings you have received over time, but bruising is no good as on the longer term it does do damage…
To have your soul cleansed with a firm spanking probably works wonders, but to go to the extreme of deep bruising..? What if you receive your +++++ spanking?
Take care of yourself, Pixie and feelings of low self-esteem and self doubt can be cured in many ways. Avoiding permanent damage as caused by frequent bruising. I simply love you too much not to be concerned.
XXX, Funbun
May 22nd, 2008 - 2:40 am
Dear Pixie,
Tell the negative voices in your head to shaddup, already!
I know–if only it were that easy!
Insecurites–we all have them. We all deal with them every day. And just when we think we’ve chased them away or made some improvement, they can come roaring back–and it doesn’t take much to make them return!
You’re a lovely person inside and out, Pixie. And those negative voices just mean you’re human, and are riding the same roller coaster as the rest of us.
My best advice is to just throw your hands in the air, let out a scream, and enjoy the ride!
And maybe flash the camera at the end….
Dr. Ken
May 22nd, 2008 - 3:05 am
You are a sweetheart Pixie. Dallas told me so many wonderful things about you. You were all that and that bag of chips!
You were such a joy to work with - both in photographs and video. Honestly, to get such amazing shots with no makeup artist- no hair stylist…YOU are beautiful Pixie. Never doubt yourself. I could photograph you all day.
I so enjoyed getting to know you and as wish we could have hung out longer. You are an amazingly smart and beautiful girl. The intensely real chemistry that comes across in your videos with Dallas is wonderful.
You give buns of steel a new meaning!
Your next chicken salad plate awaits sweets. Can’t wait to see you again.
Hugs!
xoxo
Sabrina
May 22nd, 2008 - 6:04 am
oh dear pixie i hope you can sit down now after all the spankings love from england
May 22nd, 2008 - 6:27 am
I’m sure you’ve been told this before but you ARE the sunscreen ad from way back when with the puppy pulling the bikini bottom down!
If you haven’t done a shoot like that, honey, it’s long overdue!
Anyway, you look fantastic.
May 22nd, 2008 - 12:10 pm
Hi Pixie,
As I told everyone before, it’s nice to be part of a circle of such good and caring people that write to you. All these messages reveal the heart of people who really care.
Question: who was it that I told about my scary “shopping” trips. Answer: it was sweet Pixie.
I can feel insecure, too. That’s why I hide behind my “make-believe” personality. Believe me, everything nice I ever said to you came from a sincere affection.
Look at all the people who obviously like you…
I can say that I’m happy to be part of this family of spanking people. It actually goes beyond that, however.
It’s the chance to simply reach out and be kind.
Thank you, thank you for helping me feel safe and cared about.
May 22nd, 2008 - 1:56 pm
It never ceases to amaze me how we can never see ourselves the way others do. Looking through my eyes, you would see a very bright, kind, thoughtful and amazingly beautiful young woman who has one of the best heads on her shoulders in this industry, or anywhere for that matter.
I know you don’t believe any of that… so, just believe that I believe it (if that makes any sense).
May 22nd, 2008 - 8:40 pm
I love your line: “tears are hot, snot is not.”
On you, I’m not sure I agree, but I like your sense of humor.
I guess I would add that humility is not such a bad trait to have, and if that is the worst thing you get spanked for, you are a damn good person.
May 22nd, 2008 - 10:41 pm
Do you think all of us who comment on your blog are intelligent and honest? If the answer is “yes”, then realize we speak the truth. All the lovely qualities we mention about you are completely true. If you can’t always believe it from your perspective, take it from ours. Hugs and best of luck with your inner struggles.
May 23rd, 2008 - 2:03 am
Nine implements!? You’re a brave soul, Pix — but we already knew that, of course.
I’m so happy that, in addition to using spanking for fun, intimacy, and providing great entertainment to multitudes of grateful fans, you also use it for a purpose more important than any of those: personal growth. Good for you.
Yes, it’s your being a beautiful girl — with a beautiful face and a beautiful bottom — that gets our attention in the first place. But it’s the fact that you’re a beautiful PERSON, a beautiful SOUL, that makes us stay. Your willingness to share yourself here makes others want to share, too — perhaps in ways they cannot with the people they encounter physically, and that’s a real blessing.
Thank you for all you do, all you share, all you are. Take care, and be well.
Jeff
May 23rd, 2008 - 5:37 am
Enjoy the sting, but don’t hurt yourself! Bruising? Be careful. You are such a lovely woman. Your smile is heavenly. Your bottom is gorgeous. Be well.
May 23rd, 2008 - 10:43 am
Getting spanked by Dallas when your bottom is wet doesn’t exactly seem fair… lol. Poor girl! But given the reason you got it for, Dallas (and all 9 of his implements) were right on target.
lovely pics,
Todd & Suzy
May 23rd, 2008 - 11:39 pm
Tsk, tsk, Pixie. The lengths you’ll go to for some chicken! Guess it can now be said that Dallas Spanks Hard & Does Chikin Right. Wonder what recipe he’ll come up with for your Special(Plus Plus)².
Ah, yes, then there’s that other thing. Beautiful, highly intelligent, charming, witty, a great sense of humor, caring, and a person anyone would be proud to call a friend… all attributes that just begin to describe the genuine lady that shines through from every one of these posts. That you are beset with feelings of self-doubt and low self-worth may not be an entirely bad thing, though. So long as such feelings are not allowed to become destructive, but can instead be bent to serve you, to drive you to excellence. Until that day comes, though, know that you have the love and support of all your readers.
May 24th, 2008 - 10:31 am
pixie
ialway like talking to you cause you respond to mine and other people comment\question which in return make people feel good about themself meaning people like you really care and like them even so never met in person yet.
i alway thought you were a cool beautiful smart young lady i mean this fromm bottom of my heart you better beleive what i say or anyone else i mean you don’t want have get another spanking now would you lol. it can be like the other spanking you had get for all the respond comment lol
what you say would you be up to getting spanking for every person who you have made feel good by responding to them?
wow only Nine implements! that way below ya average go up to 20-50 of implements lol for a spanking one after another. ya butt will thanks you later.
May 24th, 2008 - 5:42 pm
Remember…as beautiful as you are on the outside….multiply that by 10 for what’s inside.
No talking trash about our Pixie. So there.
May 24th, 2008 - 8:19 pm
Funbun - My skin may be experienced, but certainly not tough! Tsk! Seriously though, the intensity of a Dallas style spanking is not something I take every day and so I think I will be just fine. It’s the coffee tables, doorknobs, and evil bed frames that I really need to watch out for when it comes to repeated bruising! Dallas’ spankings are always intense (both physically and emotionally) but he is excedingly skilled and experienced to know just how far to go and do so safely.
Dr. Ken - Thank you.
You are so very sweet and I love the roller coaster analogy! Wheeeeee!
Sabrina - I think the magic lies in your awesome photography skills and your amazing ability to make one feel comfortable. I too wish we could have hung out a little more. Next time, deal? And I’m going to hold you to the promise of more chicken salad.
Tim - Yep. It was a little uncomfortable for a few days, but by now, I’m back in tip top shape.
Beverly - Dallas and Sabrina’s adorable little pups were poolside there with us. If only one had jumped up to nibble on the ribbon on my bikini!! Somehow I don’t think I could ever recreate such a shot on my own as Peanut just isn’t that cooperative.
dani - Any time Princess dani. I’m very thankful to be a part of such a warm, supportive group of individuals.
Erica - That does make sense.
I think we are alike in a lot of ways, from our interests and preferences to how hard we are on ourselves. I think so highly of you and love checking in on you because you are so real and relatable in addition to lovely and absofrickinlutely hysterical.
Brad - Best not to find out!
2Good - Well, you put me in a bind there, don’t you.
Kudos to you, my wise friend.
Jeff - The spankings I’ve received and keeping this blog both have proven to be incredibly therapeutic. Sharing with others that truly understand this aspect of my life and being that isn’t easily discussed elsewhere, is so special.
prajnaparamita - Thank you. I am smiling now … and blushing too.
Todd & Suzy - Don’t worry. My bottom didn’t stay wet for long. A flurry of Dallas spanks dried it off in a hurry!
Dreams of Horses - I’m not sure what Dallas may come up with next time, but he always finds a new twist. Maybe one day we’ll meet and he’ll just hand me a plate of chicken salad. Somehow though, I doubt it.
Mike - Goodness! A spanking for every person I responded to and made happy? What mixed feelings I’d have if I were held to that. I’d hope the number would be high and at the same time I’d be praying it wasn’t too, too many.
As for nine implements being below average, I know you must be kidding! LOL.
JC - I promise to do my best to curtail any negative self-talk. Thank you for all of your blush-worthy support and kind words!!
May 26th, 2008 - 11:51 am
Oh my… he has dogs *and* tasty chicken salads at his shoots?! Why can’t the US shoots be as easy to get to as the UK ones?!
xx
May 26th, 2008 - 5:39 pm
Hey Pixie,
Really looking forward to seeing your latest shoot with Dallas. The first one remains one of the most amazing (and from your performance/endurance, impressive) things I have ever seen.
All that said, why can’t you be a little more wicked, a little more conniving, a little more evil? For all the punishment Dallas dishes out, I just wish you got to do something fun to earn it - rather than taking all that discipline just for your self doubts.
As for the self doubts themselves, I know we all have them and I wish you luck getting over them. From a distance, it’s hard to understand why you’d lack confidence - you are pretty, smart, fun, engaging and down-to-earth. What more could anyone ask for?
Joe
May 26th, 2008 - 5:56 pm
Amy - No dogs or chicken salad on UK shoots?? Tsk! I’d amend your contract.
Joe - “why can’t you be a little more wicked, a little more conniving, a little more evil”
Well, because I’m not, and it wouldn’t be real if we cooked something up to be more sensational. I’m afraid I don’t have any serious bad ass activity to offer up. Boring as it may be, I’m actually a good girl that happens to be able to take a very hard spanking. Yes, I’m sure we could come up with a storyline for the sake of just that … a storyline, but then it wouldn’t tap into the emotional aspect that is a major part of the goal.
May 26th, 2008 - 6:23 pm
Hey Pixie,
I know in another post, you said you’ve been under the weather. I think my post didn’t reach you the way I meant it.
I was kidding. Really. I thought saying that I wished you could do something fun to earn your punishments from Dallas would kind of get that across, but I guess it didn’t.
I just checked in on MySpace and saw that you posted that you are “too well behaved” and wondered if that was in response to my post. So I had to check back here.
I’m really sorry if my post struck you the wrong way - you are a joy just the way you are - I was just going for a little teasing.
Joe
May 26th, 2008 - 6:30 pm
Joe - No worries. Sorry if I misinterpretted you. It’s just something I’ve heard before and so I guess I’m sensitive to it and took it the wrong way. Even though it may have been in jest, I do in a way agree with you. I kinda wish I had something really fun and rotten to offer up for a Dallas style spanking!!
Hope you check back again.
May 26th, 2008 - 6:40 pm
Pixie, of course. I’ll always check in. I love your blog posts, your photos and your Pixie’s Previews.
Feel better soon, I hope.
Joe
May 29th, 2008 - 3:17 pm
yes pixie i was joking about 9 implement being bleow ya average lol just wanted tease ya.
i would feel bad if u had to be spanked with more then 9 things but not as bad as ya cute butt would be feeling
June 7th, 2008 - 9:43 pm
I am editing our Dallas ++….man, it is even better looking at it from two angles. Pixie you are the best!… I think when your fans get to see it. Then will have an even better understanding of the true dynamic it represented.
Dallas Extreme +… Be good… be yourself…you are awesome
Luv Dallas & Sabrina
June 22nd, 2008 - 10:10 pm
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June 27th, 2008 - 2:16 pm
Hi Pixie,
You got spanked by Dallas; well I’m impressed! That man is the coonoisseur of spanking and anyone being spanked by him gets my enormous respect. Well done Pixie!
Clayton