So well said ! I have come out of my shell TONS and I owe it all to being spanked..lol I am relieved of so much pressure during a spanking and the big crowd of scary people began to fade when my bottom is getting warmed. Your perfectly normal to get nervous before the spanking parties, I certainly do and I’m not near as well known as yourself and many of the other spanking models.

I write papers excellently, and I pride myself on that. It’s how I get through it. I write my feelings, my passions, my pet peeves, everything. It helps. Sometimes I just grab a piece of paper or a new word document and start typing out fears, etc.

Inside I am a deeply complex person. I grew up very unpopular in school and discovered that with a cheery demeaner and smile, I could easily befriend those who I thought mattered – the other outcast kids and the adults. I pretend I am not shy, that I am the most amazing person in the world – but it took a while to get to that point. I still struggle around new people, and spent a lot of time in my room or alone at Shadow Lane. When around people I know, I tend to be bubbly and outgoing, and excessively talkative.

I also talk a lot when nervous. If faced with a new person who perhaps I am attracted to as a spanker, I become very quiet and shy, not knowing how to really approach someone, due to being so unpopular growing up.

Because the spanky people I have encountered are so much more accepting and kind than those I lived around for the first 18 years of my life, I feel more secure being more open, etc. around them.

It just takes time, identifying something that you have an issue with (not in a negative way either, issues don’t have to be bad), and finding out what you can do to make yourself feel more comfortable, or have the illusion of comfort. If you have the illusion of comfort, if you can pretend you’re really talking to friends, people who care what you have to say, etc. the confidence with come, and then it will be hard to convince people you are indeed a shy little girl.

I talk myself out of initiating contact with people and that always seems to lead to all kinds of problems, especially at work.

I probably present a lifeless or snobby impression to people but I’m quite down to earth, humble and animated and like to joke around with people I know.

My procrastination seems to usually be interpreted as not caring when I actually care so much I get paralyzed.

People who know me wonder when I will shut up with all my crazy ideas.

If someone else starts a conversation I can probably respond ok but otherwise I’ll just be quiet while my mind is buzzing with all kinds of criticisms of my own behavior.

It’s nice this blog and your Pixie’s previews video gives you a chance let people see your playful and also warm and sensitive side.

And if you didn’t have this website, how would you ever have brought up the spanking thing to your significant other?

There was a time when I was too shy to go to dinner on a date, but meeting up with someone who enjoyed spanking was easy and fun.

I let loose with my character, earning me a hot bottom just a day before I went on a first date, and met the man I eventually married.

I’ll have to try the whole “spanking before speaking” thing. Sounds like a great new therapy, to me.

Dear Pixie,
Very probably. LOL
If we ran into each other at, oh, SL or some such party, I can already hear my brain telling me, “Oh, you know how popular she is, she must be so busy, she must already know so many people here and have a full dance card. Plus she probably has to watch the PB vendor’s table, maybe some other duties. Heck, she might even be shooting a video for SL. I’ll just say “hi” and not make any demands on her time….”

Dr. Ken
(Stupid brain!)

Richard – Awww. Thank you so much Puppers. Yes, I still get nervous when shooting Pixie’s Previews, though I have gotten a little better at talking directly to the camera. I still prefer it when everyone leaves the room at least enough so that I can’t see them watching me.

I’m sure it wasn’t the first time a girl bared her bottom at Kinematics, but that was still a naughty thrill. Tehehehe.

Prajnaparamita – What a wonderfully nice way to look at shyness. And I think that is quite something that you are able to take on a new persona when having to present. It is a bit like acting when having to get up on stage and present, isn’t it.

Kat – The internet is like our brat playground. >:) I think it’s time we polish our halos and sharpen our horns.

Erica – From what I know of you, I think we are very much alike in a lot of ways!!! Are you fussing over the SL party yet? I am. :-S And yes, I spend so much time trying to be good and meet every goal, need, and expectation that it is frickin’ wonderful to be bad once in a while … and pay the price of course.

Katie – I’m sure Razor doesn’t mind helping you battle that stage fright when it means spanking your cute bottom!! I think it’s fantastic that you never let stage fright get in the way of doing what you love.

007 – I wonder if she includes it on her rider – Ms. Simon requires water, snacks, and an experienced spanker be on hand in her dressing room.

Chloe – Yeah, you know how shy I can be!! Doesn’t stop us from having fun or finding trouble though. That would be a true shame.

Dr. Ken – Awww. Does that mean we’d end up standing next to each other awkwardly waiting for the other one to ask to play?
:-/

Winchester – Very interesting observation made by the psychologist. Eye contact and body language speaks volumes above what our voices are saying I guess.

I can certainly brat despite my shyness (though as I mentioned, I am cautious when first meeting someone). And on the rare occasions that I have opted to drink, I haven’t found that I’ve gotten any more extroverted. I’m still just me, waiting for the room to stop spinning.

mike – There is comfort in knowing there are lots of others out there that are shy.

Steve (UK) – Hahaha. You sound like me in avoiding the presentation training. I managed to convince my college advisor to allow me to take a visual merchandising class instead of public speaking and while in the clinical world, I always managed to have conflicts preventing me from making those presentation seminars.

Hmmm .. a 5 minute spanking for a 5 minute speech might work, but if I were required to do a 30 minute speech, I don’t think it would matter how long or what I was spanked with. I’d still dry-heave.

Javi – Thank you! Being on camera (as long as I don’t have to speak directly into it) is so different because as Erica explained perfectly, you can get caught up in the scene and forget it’s being filmed at all. But standing up in front of a classroom and seeing those eyes on you is something different entirely! Major kudos to you for teaching for 3 years despite your shyness.

Mark – That is so sweet!!! I hope we can get to know each other well enough to brat and play too.

Dave – wouldn’t you love to see this topic addressed on VH1′s Behind The Music??

Thebes – Yup!! That is a pickle. Can’t get to know someone without communicating, but communicating is so difficult when you don’t yet know someone.

Kate – I never would have guessed you are shy too!! You always seem so bubbly and outgoing. It really is interesting how so many of us struggle with shyness but are able to be so open at the same time.

2Good – Good point. Shyness seems to have a way of affecting us all differently.

Tim – If I imagined them all naked and red bottomed, I’d probably be far to distracted to remember what it was I was supposed to talk about.

Curtis – I’ll keep that trick in mind!

Dreams of Horses – Sometimes I wonder if I don’t actually dissociate too much. Even sometimes when I’m trying to talk to the camera it’s as a part of me is rambling on while another is listening, shaking her head going “what are you saying?!?!”. Maybe it’s my inner critic that needs the spanking most.

Duncan – That really made me smile. I am indeed speaking to friends. How wonderful is that?!

I speak in front of groups at Disney and the first time I start a new talk I am so nervous. your pixie Previews are very well done you speak clearly and you dont talk a mile a minute. and thats a good sign
Just remember your speaking to friends

Duncan